Greetings, I hope this finds you well wherever you are. It is quite concerning that I write with no particular “you” in mind, isn’t it? Since I am writing, then I’m sure you are well aware that I am of course in some sort of musing state. Tonight, my thoughts are brought to me by a romantic film. Oh, how cliche. I know. I will not disclose the name of this particular film as I am one who does display shame for irrational fear of some prestigious film critic who could read this and tsk. Even behind the comfort of my anonymous writing. However, I will say that it has invoked deep thoughts of what I believe about love. Love, a seemingly simple word yet always the contrary. I do wholeheartedly believe there is no greater feeling. Not greater in the sense of superiority, but rather profoundness.
I myself while never have experiencing love in the romantic sense, have experienced love in all, if not most of its other forms. To love someone is to be willing to hurt yourself in the process. When I studied the human heart in my undergraduate anatomy class, there was one cadaver that had a rather small heart. Although i’m sure this could’ve well had a scientific explanation, my philosophical brain wondered if any coorelation had to do with the number of heartbreaks or lack thereof? Could there ever possibly be physical evidence of our abstract feelings? I do not take love lightly. I do not say “I love you” casually. Its always been sacred to me whether my friends or family. There are times where I felt so desperately inadequate in my expression of love. How could I possibly show something I could hardly grasp myself? Times I desperately wished there was a unit in which love was measured. I swore I would reach numbers never seen before. All this sounds pathetic, yes I agree.
As I grow in age and also maturity, my perception of the world and the human experience grows more complex. I find that no matter how astounded I am by the STEMS of the world a deeper subconscious part of me is consistently drawn to concepts encompassed by passion. Arts, poetry, literature. This week a great scientific milestone was reached. Artemis II returned safely and proved amazing astronomic theories. This was being livestreamed and even while hundreds of thousands of miles away from earth and being so close to something as beautiful as the moon, the mission specialists could only talk about human connection.”Ultimately, we will always choose Earth. We will always choose each other,” this a excerpt from the many powerful statements they made on their broadcast.
After numerous years, I have thought many times that I will harden in some way. Form into some sort of rock and that heat would indurate my being. But by the evidence of several heartbreaks, its been substantiated that I am not fashioned like a sediment.
The most beautiful things are complex , slightly abnormal and at times even grotesque. I hope you find love everywhere you look even if at times its unsightly. You are made to be more than a literal being and I hope you can find some sort of serenity and fulfillment when there feels like there’s no reason to. When the world around us is burning and humans are suffering in masses. As stated by Ernest Hemingway, “Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know“. Be curious, seek knowledge but make this life worthwhile and feed your soul. As always, this goes for both me and you.
With love and light,
Uyoon Al-Ghazaal
Uyoon Al-ghazaal 
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